turning 25 may be the best thing that has ever happened to me. im back to being ME again
i forgot how weird both of those movies are. not weird enough that i could stop watching though lol
Few feelings can match wanting something you can’t have. It is intense. It is heavy. Often times we long for what we can’t have out of mystery. The sheer anticipation of solving that mystery is what drives some people. Others long for what what they once had. A feeling, a moment, whatever. If you’ve felt bliss in something before and became used to it its hard to just have that cut off. What is your forbidden fruit?
I miss the feeling.
Since I moved back home i went from miss social to antisocial, not by choice though. But I will say that not having friends has made me a stronger person. I am able to do activities and enjoy my own company more than I ever have before. I still LOVE other peoples company, I have just become more secure and accepting of my own.
I repress my feelings just so I can make it day to day without breaking down.
Im used to getting dumped, played, lied to. thats MY role in a breakup. I play that role well. With that being said when im in the drivers seat to a breakup GAH LEE, i swerve out of control.
With that being said. I can handle being broken up with. In fact I welcome it. But hurting someone else is just not my steez and Im horrible at it.
Never wanna play that role ever ever again
And im so happy. Awesome girl
Red Lobster biscuits will make er dance
School Boy Q
Kelly Rowland but only bc she is doing Sexpot music now
and a slew of others but im brain dead right now
I want to be passionate again. For the past 7mos I just been going through the motions of everyday life.
I just want to thank 2012 for all the lessons it taught me.
has been the best worst year of my life, and im so thankful for that
feeling sorry for myself about certain situations. I did my best and it didnt work out. Lauren you will deal. Life goes on.
even though i know that no one cares. I may be starting a health blog. Today was officially my last day eating fast food. I am disgusted by it. Disclaimer: this may be the bad taste in my mouth talking right now.
Im also thinking about going on a month long juicing fast. its a fast where you put fruits and veggies into a juicer and instead of food you drink that as a meal.
extreme i know but im into pushing myself lately.
For the past two months I really havent had anything to say. People who really know me know that this is is something that is amazing because I ALWAYS have something to say. I just been living life and learning new things. I rediscovered myself in the process. I lost who I was a long longgggg time ago and reconnecting w myself has been awesome. Hopefully the next couple months are amazing. I deserve it
It took everythibng in me right now to call who i wanted to call sincd im drunk
I noticed that when people really like me. Like REALLY REALLY like me til they get to really know me, then they wanna change me. Not to sound conceited but im such a beautiful person w such a beautiful soul tht it baffles me that people would want to alter it. One day somebody wont though and thts the day Ima pick you over them.
Even though everything isnt exactly how I want it right now, I have faith that it will work out in my favor in the end. Til then im happy :]
Someone asked me that on twitter and being completely honest I did not know how to explain this. My first thought was to list all my academic accomplishments, how I know how to cook, how I submit etc etc but honestly ALOT of women can bring those exact same things I attributed to myself themselves so what makes me so special? nothing really lol. I told the person that really what I bring to the tables depends on how much I like the guy. Im not bringing everything to the table w every fly by night guy I like because then I would be used up and for what a date to the movies? idk im all about adaptation. Most people when you meet them they will pour out different qualities that will make them the perfect mate for you but Im not like that, 1: I would rather show you. but honestly the only thing I can bring to the table is myself. Just Lauren
I really have no idea where I was going with this.
So why do I care, I care at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll at allllllllllllllllllllllllll at allllllllllllllll